1am, time to turn in to bed. I head into the hotel washroom to wash up and brush my teeth. While looking into the mirror, all of a sudden I saw something amiss. One of the bright sparkling stone is missing on my right ear - in particular it is one of my 四点金 from Mum's long service award. My 1st reaction was WTF and my immediate reaction was to come out of the washroom and told Adeline "the guy was right to have ask you to remove your necklace". The next moment, lots of thoughts ran through my mind - Omg where did I lost it, how did I lost it, why didn't I took it off when I went to play Hydrodash. Next came the devasting sinking feeling and wash of sadness as discomfort take over my body - why no one reacted, why no one cared?!
As I tried to calm myself down, I took my phone and on the torch in a weak attempt searching round the hotel room in hope of spotting a hint of sparkle that will bring relief to me. Only specks of dust, linen, water droplets, hair fragments were found. More disheartening as I see the drain cover cover with strand of hair was the holes were big and there is no sight of sparkle trapped within it. My heart sank further as memories of my handfull close call incidents of me losing the same sparkle in my home washroom flashes back. Did it went down the drain? What are the odds?!
Next I headed out into the room to try out my luck. As the rest were sleeping, there was no way I could on the lights and disrupt their sleep, especially when everyone is kind of sleep deprived. After another weak attempt searching in a semi dark state room, I crawl into bed feeling anxious and my mind start it run from despair leading to anxious and I start to feel slight tightness in my chest. How did a out of a sudden full of fun and accomplishment staycation turn for the worse?!
As I lie in bed with the thoughts of calming myself down, I decided a good coping mechanism would be to dedicate a post here and reminds me of my experience, thoughts and keep a memory that will serve as a reminder as i journey my way.
At this point, as tiredness try to rob me of my concious, I start to feel my heart ache ease as my breathing starts to calm down and gradually my flight got took over my fatigue & tiredness.
As I end this post on a slight good note keepingy emotionals in check and telling myself althought it is a very important material item that have a sentimental value that can't be replaced and given my careless and not trusting my gut feeling and acting on it may also have result in the situation now. On the bright side, only 1 side is gone "with the waves during hydrodash" and that is the reason I am going to "give" myself so as to accept this misfortune accident and ce to a closure.
2pm - my eyelids have a date and it is time I sign off and let my fatigue take me away.
